Photo by Petr Kratochvil
“They go to bed with Gilda, they wake up with me.” – Rita Hayworth
After years of others trying to change me and my trying to change myself, I’ve finally given in to the realization that it’s not going to happen.
I’m charismatic and neurotic
Passionate and overwhelming
Bad with money and good with people
The first to lean on in hard times but a lot of work
I’m a dreamer and unrealistic
Adventurous and dangerous
Attractive and overweight
Loving and sensitive
I’ve got addictive highs and lows
Fun but unstable
Creative and hard to understand
Easy to love and hard to hold onto
It’s easy to love the good and even easier to hate the bad in each one of us. What I’ve finally come to realize is that there’s always a flip side to every coin, and we all have it. More importantly, we don’t deserve any of it if we don’t love it all.
I was never able to accept this in my own life until I realized that loving what others consider their weakness is what makes them beautiful to me, and not loving it in myself is what enabled others to take what they wanted from me while rejecting what they didn’t.
I’ve finally come to love myself as I am, and am certainly done giving the time of day to anyone that doesn’t.
I am not here to be loved for what I represent. I am here to be loved for who I am.
How about you? What are the Yangs to your Yins? What about both sides make you and others bring the beauty?
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
I’ve always known who I am. I write, I love the arts, I love people and I love travel. I’m passionate and need to fight for what I believe in. I never had a problem knowing who I am. My battle has been fighting the outside forces that would tell me I am wrong.
There’s only so long we can run from ourselves before surrendering and that’s where I am now. I’ve given into who I am and what I love. That is what you see here.